the people or the elite bunch ?

Recently I have been following on some politics from around; Bangkok, KL or even US.

Politics are so corrupt and it is not the most healthiest to practise especially in office and within groups of friends. But without it between governments and countries will not function well.

I am following it to for the sake of seeing how people change and fluctuates when comes to serving their country and its citizens. I see only the surface as I am no insider about who is who or whom is gang up with whom and what strategy to each is applying in the arts of war !

I stress my points that politicians or member of parliaments are all elected by people; people from the street, people who are real and living in that country. A lot of times politicians fail to see that they are being elected by the locals to voice out their grievances in the parliament, MP's are the people's voice !

I am citing example in Thailand, I see the real people, the poor are seeking a person who gives them a better life, a person whom had built the country's economy from bad to good during the crisis in 1998. But all is forgotten as he is not friendly with a certain elite group. So who should an MP or politician serve ? The people or the elite ?

Same goes to our current situation in MCA, a local race base political party. Its current past President had taken the bull by the horn to address reform and change within the association to make it relevant to the people. But instead he stir the elite's hornet and got himself into trouble for doing so; polls still suggest that he is the people's choice ! Again who should the president serve ? the people or the elite ?

it is sad that the general public is being ignored but it will not be long when the People Power rises again. A country is a country when there are citizens and people will only want to live in it when they know it is save and provides them with security and food ! When the border line is crossed and its people fell threaten, human as in any being will retreat and resist, will retaliate and rebel !

So in a country or organisation who will be the main backbone; the people or the elites; the work force or the managers ?

The edge ... and back !

My hearts is feeling a little pain, its hurting me. 2 more days to full moon, the bright lights shining from the windows again captures my attention. Can never resist the beauty of it, in the middle of the nights when the whole world is slowing down, its residence is, in this part of the globe is resting. The almost full moon is when I will always be reminded of one person. I will miss her a lot. And it hurts a lot too. I hope that she had found peace with herself and allows love to flow in to her and not let things passes by.

It pinch into your heart fiercely when you know that someone you love dearly is not responding to you, and refusing to let love flow in. It hurts everyone when the one refuses to let the flow flow freely.  But as it is supposed to be, universe have its own way and there is a process that we all need to go through instead of rushing in to process it. Time …

The full moon will always be my reminder of this person whom had come into my life as reminder. Reminding me about soul mate, reminding me about now. It was a very intense 3 months , it had been a period of intensity to the maximum and had me once again all worn out. I am tire and it almost push me to the edge. 

Life is as always a process and a world classroom that provides us with so much of lessons and teachings to seek the better of whom we are. With each lessons and hints from the universe we hope to change ourselves to become whom we seek out to be.

I will always think of you ‘little finger’, the fullmoon will be my reminder !

shock ...

While I was in Jakarta attending DEEP & EXTREME Indonesia as a buyer, I was shock to know of 2 death on the same day, within the same hour. Though non of the deceased are close to me but it is shocking enough that the last I met them is last year July in KL. One is a young man; hard working and nice, the other is someone new not too acquainted but still was a shock as he is healthy looking.

For a moment during the table talk buyer meet sellers session, I was taken aback. Their leaving had me stop for a moment. Life could be just like that and very often its just like that. But yeah like Rantje says life goes on, it happens everyday. But I was really taken a back, Zain of Dive Indonesia and Svein of Siladen.

I do understand that we must appreciate what we have now and cherish whom we have now. But sometimes things cannot be hurried. There's always a process to follow, to speed up the process will make matters worse if not worsen what it already is. Sometimes I want to just rush in, but very often we can not do just that. The process must be follow. If its not time yet, we have to wait and be patience.

I hope their soul will rest in peace and I am sadden that I do not have the chance to do business with Zain at all. He is hardworking and energetic ! Too pre-mature to end his journey.

lost and found

* this post was created on 27th February 2010; somehow I almost forgot about it until now.

Yesterday I was so happy I found back a pendant that I thought was lost. It was a black colored heart shape pendant made of a kind of stone that I bought from Kwai, Thailand. And also at the same time ALL my contacts in my new phone was lost when I did a sync with my laptop. And in there was a contact that I most wanted to keep, a person's contact that I still want to keep close to my heart as I know that we have not close the chapter yet. and while transferring the contacts I manage to retrieve the number from my sim card, I found again.

That feeling of lost and found, makes me treasures it more now. This pendant is of black color which is consider a bad luck color what more its a heart shape pendant in black, my Mom do not like it at all. But I kept it. Deep in my heart, I thought that Mom had throw my pendant away. She did it once with my one of the orang utan I brought back from a dive show. I was angry and did not talk to her for a few days. So when she says that she don't like this pendant and it got missing. I thought she throw it away again. But NO, it was hidden in a corner in my closet. But why is it there ? I have no idea. And when I saw that pendant, I was like ... guilty, happy and sad ! Guilty of accusing my Mom of throwing it away ( though I only realise of it's missing last year when Mom already passed away) happy because I really like the pendant. Sad because Mom won't be able to see that I am always going against her will, the rebellious one.

Only when we realise that we have lost that we will know how much we value it. SO when it is found back, we know we are given a second chance to appreciate it more.

How often we are given that second chance ?

finally .. I have been to Bali !

After 8 years, I first came to Bali in 2002 a month after the first Bali bomb, I have not the chance to visit Tanah Lot. The past 8 years I have visited Bali more then 6 times, and every time I was either staying in Ubud or Candidasa or too short trips.

Today finally Kadek Andi opens up my interest to visit Tanah Lot while transferin me from Alam Asmara to Kuta. He offer to transfer me to Tanah Lot just a short de-tour. I hesitated but was thinking since I have nothing to do in Kuta might as well go. He was telling me that there was a saying by Java resident that to come to Bali without going to Tanah Lot is like not having been to Bali at all. So for me finally, I have been to Bali ! But I can’t go into the temple because I was having my menstruation and sacred places of worship are forbidden. So I guess I have to save it for my next visit.

Finally, I can say I have been to Bali now; Tanah Lot, I remember seeing a picture of my mom or dad taken in Tanah Lot when he is working in Surabaya in the older days. Now I am finally here.

I guess this is how the universe work sometimes, just when we did not expect it, we are given the chance to it. Just be patience and trust that it is on the way and the way will be lead to you. Be patience and have faith and trust that the message you sent out had been received and taken care of.

I am full, I am grateful and I feel blessed ! Finally my journey of Bali is complete. I hope to make it whole, please allow me to be whole and complete

another journey ....

Through out my career I have had many journeys, some to new destinations some re-visiting. Every journey have its own lesson in it. Just 6 days back, I started another. My planned journey, Jakarta, Labuan Bajo (Komodo Island) and Bali. And who I'll be meeting is not known. Meeting new people that's for sure, new experience with a group of 16 - 20 people that's for sure. And having a room mate that I don't know who will be another experience.

When I start my journey last Thursday, my mind was all over; on the extra baggage that I need to carry for Mr Sim, on the people that I will meet at the show, on how to capture more sales. But the moment I am in the departure hall, all these flies away; I told myself to open up for what may come, and allow it the freedom to flow in.

I was glad that this time the group of buyers are more friendlier then the last, mainly I think is because most of us are from Asia, I mean residing in Asia as there are 3 white men which resides in Thailand and Taiwan. So they are more or less adapted to the Asia culture. We share quite a lot of jokes, and particularly one Eddie the joker from Taiwan who is also a 2nd time buyer. He did not give me a good impression last year when I misjudge him, thinking he is here more of a seller rather then a buyer.. Anyway, when our flight from Jakarta to Bali was cancel and made us waited for more then 4 hours for another flight; we had the chance to really slow down and get into some light hearted chats and sharing of experiences. Eddie allows me to see a different side of him or put it that I see another side of Eddie when he was talking about his daughter the precious. He and his wife had been trying for years and due to the fact the his wife is a diabetic makes it even more precious that she is finally born healthy and safe. I can see in his eyes the joy of being whole and complete !! This is Eddie ..

And during this trip, I share room. I was thinking to share or stay single. I have never share room for quite some time now as I was so use to travelling alone and being alone. So I decided to just share ...

And on the first day, as we arrive from various countries of destinations in my list my room mate is a Korean. You know the idea of like how she looks like, is she fun to be with or the snobbish type bla bla bla. And she arrive quite late after we had dinner and I went back to the room, check mails etc ... she came in about 10:30 pm I lock the door so she was taken aback and I open the door for her ! tadaaaa ..... a young girl ? hahahahaha .... and quite fun too ! but being a Korean she does act like one. Anyway Colleen was fun and chatty, but I think she is fresh hence she just maintain her distance on conversation with the rest.  Colleen ....

During our 3rd day on the 13th we were suppose to fly to Denpasar Bali to connect to Labuan Bajo Komodo. However as fate may have it that our flight to Bali was cancel and everything just suddenly turn upside down. All schedule went havoc ... shuttling between terminal 2 & 3, missing 2 members, and waited for 4 hours (we woke up at 2:45 am) for our 7am flight. So much possibilities and uncertainties, we may overnight in Bali, we not end up in Komodo at ALL ! However I leave it to the universe if I am destine to be in Bali or fated to stay in Jayakarta ! The group was so upset when knowing the possibility that they may not end up in Komodo. But fate or some may call it God, I would just say the universe always have a way of its own. It is a blessing that I don't have to overnight on the boat .. so funny ;p

Sometimes if we really allow things to just flow in and not forcing or expecting too much what we will get in return will be much more then we expect. I am more enlighten after this journey as it took us 12 hours from Jakarta to Labuan Bajo when we should be there in 5 hours !! Just let it unfold when you know you have done your best ...