If you tell the truth you don't have to remember anything

I quotes this from Mark Twain.

Of late, I find myself losing my grip on my daily life, my focus and my passions are all floating and drifting. Work matters, relationship matters are all over the places.

But what really troubles me is a new friendship ... hmmm I find myself entangle in the web of deceit and a friendship gone wrong when I touch on the most sensitive of their truth. When the topic comes out it is right on the most sensitive of the situation and that I have touch on their most fearsome taboo. I have long rise up to this kind of entanglement but somehow drawn into it unconsciously. At this moment in my life, I have walk the many path and taken up the many lessons in life that I am most too frank to touch on the taboo of honesty and being truth to oneself and the people around us especially in the minority community's issue.

Anyway, I have come this far in life to know who will walk the path with me and who I will leave behind as well as who will just be a casual encounter. I am never a person who like to spend time involve in a toxic friendship, if a person comes into my life just for a reason then I know when to end. Because I am not there to change but just to invoke a mind to think what's next ! And it is always not my choice to decide what's next for anyone to follow.

I guess along the way you and me have gone through a lot of picking up and dropping off, the process selection is always never ending. Human is also ever changing that we will meet so many types of people and characters that may or may not fits into our own ! And talk about fitting in .. some are wearing masks everyday, some are just plain ignorant and some are just too secretive ! ! If I am to wear a mask in front of a person whom I call friend then its just to tiresome and faking. I will choose to leave and opt out .. because I don't want to cover a lie with more lies, it is too tiring to have to remember what I have said !

I find it amazing that at this part of my journey I am facing some very interesting people. Some of whom choose to be restricting their true self, some are open on the surface and yet fear to speak the truth, some choose to be ignorant and dumb ! Some look fearless but are full of fear inside, some choose to live a life full of deceit when they keep accusing cheaters and liers ! It is most fascinating how human varies and how each have their own choices to live their life !

What an amazingly true life ! So what kind of mask are you wearing now ?

Soulmate

I am reading a new book called Brida and it is about Brida's journey of finding her soulmate ! from the very first few pages I read, I couldn't put it down. This is how powerful Coelho's skill of story telling is.

And it keeps me thinking when I read "But how will I know who my soulmate is ? "By taking risks, by risking failure, disappointment, disillusion, but never ceasing in your search for Love. As long as you keep looking, you will triumph in the end" And before that, why soulmate and what is soulmate ? Accordingly, we may have many soulmate in our life as we are re-born again and again that our souls are being split into 2 and re-born. It also explains why in our live we go through a few relationships each time thinking that we have found the one but it may turns out to be not.

Do you believe in soulmate ? I am still unable to find the right words to continue this post.

Note : I have to admit that I struggling to finish this post on a few occasions but never have the inspiration to write as my mind was far away. And I don't want to delay and keep on editing this post.

Some crazy vdos ...

VDO # 01

SuperGoo

VDO # 02

SuperDog

VDO # 03

SuperFarnie

Enjoy while I sum up and finish the last post !

Are you true to yourself ?

The past few week I have been having some blocks .. too many things moving and surfacing, however one of the most disturbing is a new friendship, which I thought should be a new friendship because I am a deadly honest and frank person, I hold no reservations when it comes to friendship ! Some people are taken aback with my over warm some may be offended but we they see and opens up .. they will know who I am.

Recently I have had an encounter with a new friend, I don't know whether to take her as a friend or otherwise. When we connects, we opens up ourself to be true to each other and hence the exchange of informations about ourself, who we are, what we are. That will leads to more sharing and caring on a mutual level.

It is in my principal and my utmost belief that when we first connect to know each other, we already have the fate and destiny that if we can keep the relation opens and allows it to develop into a friendship would be ideal. Life is so short why would we need to hide and lie ? Because with one lie more lies will come, in order to cover that lie. SO it will be a change of lies. If we hide the truth then everyone will be in a web of deceit, nothing is real all are fake !

Being friend, if we open up the flow to communicate we should be sincere and trustworthy to this bonding, otherwise we are not being true to ourself and the person we are in connection with. This person that I have had the connection with really disappoint me, I am a person who holds friendship dearly and strongly, more important than anythings else besides my family ! A friend should be for lifetime, otherwise I will refer you as my casual acquaintance.

I really feel disappointed and upset when I am able to opens up to her I expect the equal and same level of honesty and respect from her. With this group of new friends. they are so warm and truth to their very own existence despite them coming from different backgrounds except one ! However one particular person I don't know whether to call her as a friend or otherwise is living in a world of her own; denial ? escapism ? Only she herself knows.

All I want to say is, to accept who you are and being true to yourself is most important. That to live a life of denial and escapism is not an act of bravery but an act of cowardice ! One must be brave enough to face what life throws to us if we are not able to face it then what is life about ? What lesson have you learn in this journey on earth ? You just passes through it, never living in it !

It will be a life full of suffering and unhappiness, why would we need to live our life in such a manner when we can lift our heads up high and be true to ourself. And why would we want to hide away from reality ? I can feel her loneliness and fear; somehow if she is not willing to open up, I will only be staring from outside into the dark little chamber there with only a hole to peep into.

I do feel sad that I am not able to help her to understand the importance of acceptance of being truth to oneself. Only if she is able to accept and be open that people around her will be able to help and assist her to see a whole new world !

I told her I have not abandon her, I am still here when she is ready to share ! Don't be an idiot and not take pro-active move .. be fair to your love one and yourself !