Not rushing

coming into 2024, 7 years lapse since is last wrote. many things passed, many things changed, many many incidents of ups and downs. 

the passing of a very good friend, the challenge of careers continues, the rise and falls of many things, the lost of my beloved brother, the losses one have to endure in life. 

Yet despite all above, continue to keep walking, I am always slow to reach taking my own sweet time and enjoying every step of the hard and soft process of life. Not rushing, not pushing and always trust that karma will pays you what you had sowed.

when trust is broken, try to forgive and learn from the mistake of mistrusting; not allowing to be cheated again. their choice to cheat, out of desperations or nature, they too will pay for what they sowed. the process of life will be different for everyone of us, some will goes through it when they are in their 30s some in their 40s or maybe 50s; some are still not able to rise up even when they are in their 60s. Every one have a choice and that choice is all about every own intelligence .. no one correct syllabus or formula even. 

coming to 55, i have had a very hard 35 years of career as well as personal life. a little tire, trying to figure out whats next. as some of the times during the past 55 years on earth, one of those times, as my best friend says "try to find back the passion, soul searching" time.

i must admit that i lost the interest or urge to pen, maybe because of the change of times. Less and less papers, no journal book, no reading with books on hand. Hence less writing, and less inspirations.